Chapter 1
The Beginning
My father lie dying in bed, as the family arrives to say good-by. Once the will is read everything becomes more intense.
Chapter 2
Daddy’s Love
Each time he entered my bedroom fear and hatred filled my heart. Daddy dearest kept coming back…for more.
Chapter 3
The Beatings
With each slap, I cried harder. Was he right all this time…was I stupid and worthless?
Chapter 4
Another way to love
I learned that sex can mean love, sometimes, maybe. This boy told me so, so had daddy.
Chapter 5
The Joy, the Peace, the Pain
The home and family I had always wanted. No one was ever going to hurt me again, I thought.
Chapter 6
Betrayal and Revelation
My knight in shining armor is becoming a monster. Little sister cries out for help.
Chapter 7
Choices-Good or Bad
Family is everything. Decisions made with the intent to protect those you love.
Chapter 8
The Christmas that Wasn’t
The trip was filled with excitement, joy, and nervousness. My car filled with gifts, the trip ended with a different kind of present.
Chapter 9
If loneliness Could Talk…
It would yell at me to run. Before I knew it he was on top of me, yelling his intentions.
Chapter 10
One Bad Decision Leads to Another
Most of us have been there. Thinking all is good and finding you are worse off than when you started.
Chapter 11
Trust Your Instincts
It always seems blissful at first, until it isn’t.
Chapter 12
Bad Choices Again
A move that would prove to be a life time mistake
Chapter 13
The Cowboy with Horns
The dance that would prove to make my world… stand still.
Chapter 14
Heaven and Hell
I was in heaven, but the past proved to me it would not last…it didn’t.
Chapter 15
Swinging Partners
When my husband said let’s swing, I would soon find out what he meant.
Chapter 16
Building Walls
Walls aren’t only built around property, sometimes they are built around people.
Chapter 17
Therapy
I was so excited, he was going to therapy. His therapy turns out to be the best therapy for me.
Chapter 18
Stumbling Walls
As with anything that is built, eventually it can be taken down…little by little.
Chapter 19
Going Forward
All my life I held onto pain, guilt and hatred. I had to learn how to live another way.
Chapter 20
List of services
Resources, hotlines, and websites dealing with child and sexual abuse.
Chapter 21
Abuse Survivor Resources
Author Biography